Everytime its the same; each time i see him there is no escape from an identical fate. this supprise encounter has repeatedly visited me over the last 3yrs. during whatever situation i may be in, i see him and slowly he is all i can see. at this point every detail in his face and demeanor becomes clear, inside im getting flustered and being drawn towards him. my facial expressions communicate hopeful excitement but his face say nothing and dismisses me immediately. visually seen is my adoration for him and his rejection by shrugging his shoulders. the message is obvious however i dont believe i have yet accepted it. he's been out of my life, now just stay out of my subconscious!